Although we're happily married now, my wife and I didn't have the best relationship throughout high school. Typical high school nonsense getting in the way. Several break ups, many fights, lots of dirty moves, but at the same time, there was no way we could stay away from each other.
This song is about how stubborn I was to commit to a real relationship, but its from her perspective. I tried to paint out how hard it probably was for her to love me so dearly just for me to run as fast as I could in the opposite direction. I don't think I captured half of what she really felt, but I believe that this is something everyone can relate to.
lyrics
Something's telling me I'm not on my way,
I don't believe that there's a whole lot to say,
I'll just conclude at the confession of the truth
that there's a whole lot of you left for me to understand.
Something's telling me you're trying to stay away,
I don't want it to be like this again.
You don't get to pick and choose out of this
just to leave me alone with the things you'll never miss.
Do you love me or do you not?
I can't pretend to tell the difference.
I just need you to believe or understand I can't do this again.
Do you love me or do you not?
I can't pretend to tell the difference.
I'm starting not to understand the lies that I fed myself for so long to keep you on the mend.
And I'm telling you... time takes everything.
And I don't know why time after time,
it draws me in just to lose my mind.
But I won't let go,
cause it feels so right
just to feel your problems lying next to mine.
credits
from '94,
released June 24, 2017
Earl Jordan - Bass
Deshaun Allen - Drums
Cori P. Alexander - Co-Production, Keyboards, Programming, Tracking, Mixing, Mastering
All vocals and guitars tracked by DOM
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